This is likely to turn into a four-part series, of sorts. Let me start by saying that I am a believer. I believe that there’s something more out there, a God if you will. Or maybe even Gods, I’m not entirely sure. But because of this I also believe that there are ‘others’ out there to help guide you through life. I am not necessarily a religious person, but more of a spiritual person and I’ve experienced some things that maybe others haven’t. Nothing too wild, but still, enough to make me rethink the ‘path’ that I was meant to be on.
That being said, I know a woman who’s been recommended to me for many years, I was hesitant to speak to her at first because while I wanted to know things, I didn’t really want to know. Plus, for a while, she was a bit hard to get a hold of so maybe that was a sign that we weren’t meant to connect, until now. I reached out to her recently to try and give it another go, and she responded. She classifies herself as a Paranormal Psychic Medium, I’ve never heard a negative thing about her and know people (who I hold to a high regard) who have gone to her for guidance.
So you get to ask 4 questions during your reading, and as I’m a bit scatterbrained and tried not to ask anything too specific I asked about the basics: career, romance, life/health, spirituality. The latter was more for guidance in the matter as I’ve been doing research but find I need more of a mentor in that regard, but more on that later. So here’s part one of my reading.
“There is a need for a change in career. It is encouraged that you pursue something that encourages you to be “artistic” or creative in some way. This needs to be something that is your true passion, or something that you find a great deal of interest in. You are drawn to it… but with that comes another message.
A man will make this difficult for you. You should remain strong in your desire as it is where you are meant to be. However, this man is under 30, and difficult to understand. He is all over the place with his thoughts and processes. He is often seen as a quitter, but picks up again and says he has it all together. He is a teller of white lies… very ridiculous lies… exaggerates and it is obvious. He pretends to be friends with people and often talks behind their back and will throw anyone under the bus when he can for his own benefit. Be careful of this person… if he’s not in your life now than he will be in the near future. You will see good in them and try to look past what everyone else says or thinks. DONT”
Right off the bat I knew what she meant, I like what I do and have worked hard the last 3-4 years to get where I’m at, and while I know that there’s still a lot of work to be done and so much more for me to learn about what I do now… it’s not something that I LOVE. I hear other people talk about what it is that we do and you can just tell that this is their life. This is what they want to do and this is what they thrive in, and I don’t know if it’s just the way that I’m wired or what, but I’ve never really felt any joy or passion in anything that I’ve done. I found something that I’m good at and that isn’t necessarily just a job, I can make something good come of this, but I still feel like something’s missing.
The line of work I’m in now can sometimes be creative, but I still feel that I lack a sense of drive and want to succeed. But again, maybe that’s just how I’m wired?
There is one thing that I really do love to do. My biggest fear (I guess) is that I’m afraid I’ll hate it once it becomes a job. And I can see that happening, I love to bake, but sometimes I find it so stressful that I realize that it’s not something I would want to do on the regular. I do it now because I enjoy it, I enjoy how the finished product can make someone feel, but sometimes the moments leading up to that can be stressful!
As for the guy… I’m not sure who that is. I had a few people in mind but as I read further I realized those characteristics didn’t apply to the people I thought it was. So I guess I’ll just be on the lookout! Until then, I have a lot to think about on what my future holds and what path I want to take… because unfortunately, it appears this is the first step in my journey to happiness.